For all of 2015 and 2016, I wasn’t really sure what I wanted to do with my blog, where I wanted it to go or what I wanted to write about. I felt stuck and uninspired and wasn’t really sure what to do. I knew the things I DIDN’T want to focus on anymore and I knew that would eventually lead me to where I needed to go. It felt weird because I wasn’t writing as often as I usually do and that’s because I wasn’t really sure what I wanted to write about, what I wanted to focus on and how what I was writing would help or inspire someone. I found that when I’m not really sure what to do…the best thing is to just wait and see what unfolds.
Sometimes when you’re not sure what to do, the best form of action is inaction. I know it sounds counterintuitive but if you rush into something from a place of anything other than being sure/it feeling right, it can lead to regret. Or you can just produce more stuff that you’re not connected to which will lead you to eventual burnout or worse, sickness.
A much needed break from blogging.
As I took the last few months to step away from my blog, I found that writing about offices, workspace design, DIYs and partnering with brands for frequent posts wasn’t what I wanted to do anymore. I’ve been running my modern and fabulous web design agency for over 5 years, so thankfully I could take a step back from my blog/business and not have everything else come crashing down.
The truth is, I love a lot of things. Of course I love interior design–but I also love art, beauty, web design, opera, ballet, nature, stationery, business, animals, food, writing, painting, baking, working out, netflixing, reading and a lot of other things I’m passionate about. But the major thing I noticed in all parts of my life, is my love and passion for beauty as a whole. I’m a very visual person and that involves all aspects of my life. I can’t stand visual clutter or spaces that don’t come together in some way. All things in my life need to look and feel beautiful. Though my wardrobe is mostly black it’s curated together that way on purpose. Everything in my life seems to have one general theme and it’s my love of beauty (and currently with a monochromatic theme haha).
When I came to this conclusion it was a giant relief for me, a big (self imposed) weight off my shoulders.
Because we’re told as kids and adults that we have to find that ONE thing and just be good at it forever or you’re doing life wrong. I’d admire friends who knew they were just BORN to do something and at the same time I would think “what’s wrong with me?” because I didn’t feel the same way. I’ve been an entrepreneur for over 10 years and with that comes a lot of different things I’ve tried, learned, loved or left. So to realize that my “thing” is that I just love beauty felt really good and it just felt right to me. I know it’s something about me that will never change and that has been inside me since I could remember. It’s why the home page of my site has the following quote:
And that’s exactly how I feel.
So I’m not really sure how content on my social media accounts and blog will go for now. I know that I’ll likely write about my life as an entrepreneur because it’s something I feel really connected to. I also often find myself consulting my web design clients on their businesses for free because I enjoy it. I love life as an creative entrepreneur and I love beauty, art and design in all its forms.
So maybe you’ll see some small business tips/checklists and things that have helped me as a business owner, trips to art galleries, design/decor that I’m into, day in the life of posts and maybe a DIY post here and there. I’ve thought about the focus being a lifestyle entrepreneur because that’s what I am but I don’t want to put myself in a box anymore. I just want to write when it feels good to write. When I do write, I hope that my posts, past posts and what’s to come will help or inspire someone in some way.
Feeling lost or unsure?
If you’re feeling like you’re not really sure what you’re “supposed” to do then my advice to you is to take a step back and not do anything at all. Sit and meditate on things, take a walk (or many walks) and journal how you’re feeling. Do this for a while. I promise it will come to you with time and it will most likely be something you never thought it would be. It might not be one giant AHA moment but a bunch of little ones. It may be just like me, where you don’t have a specific talent you want to focus on but you a specific feeling or mantra you want to have about your life. And that’s 100% okay as long as you’re happy.